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new relationship freekout |
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reen |
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Sep 30, 05 - 5:39 AM |
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hi Chuck, I'm back here again. I met and agreed to get to know better a different fellow. well it's been a couple of weeks of excitement and attraction and sharing, but then it seemed to be sliding downhill and because pf that I am having mass anxiety and depression and sadness come up. I am cool about it mostIy, but the fear is not, feel this guy is a step in the right direction, but why can't i just be ok with it.
i know what you will say, feel the feelings, and they will be released, but again it is hard to do so. so much fear of abandonment. i know the reasons don't matter. i just need to work thru it by allowing my feelings to surface, that again it is there in front of me to heal, triggered by this man, and time to work on releasing rather than simply having my freekout. tho i suspect this is part of the process. what is freakout anyway, other than raw fear...
Just felt i needed to revisit your site and recieve encouragement to not run away. but that is the least of my concerns, because i fear he will no longer find me interesting, tho i certainly am and i know it well. hmmm. ok so i know no contact, nothing, must process this fully as quickly as possible, before he does fulfil my fears. and i really would like to learn how to have a healthy relationship. and i wont as long as this hangs over me like a sad cloud. ok, i will do it.... thanks Chuck for your wonderful website. if you have anything to contribute to help me stay on track plese pleas do so. i need to move past this feeling that has caused me to always choose lesser men, knowing that they were far less likely to abandon me. I like this fellow for all the right reaons. seems a horrible shame and waste if my unprocessed fear will turn off this man who i do think would make a good life partner. Don't want my unprossed fear to manifest, cause it will surely cause him to manifest my fears, Instead I hope to achieve a clearing... before our next date on sunday....thanks again. |
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PhaseIII by chuck · Oct 12, 05 - 6:51 AM
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