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Relief. |
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Jen |
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Oct 14, 05 - 5:11 PM |
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Thanks Chuck.
Everything just stopped. Seriously. It's weird. I lost everything over the last two months. My job, my title, my car, my apartment, my pride. I declared bankruptcy this week. Then I got a really bad fever and fever blisters and I was worried about my health (due to previous hospitalization issues).
There's nothing left to lose and I feel fine now. I lost everything and I am still alive. Plus, even though I should be homeless I had a new friend offer me a room. I even realized this morning that I only get feverish when I become resentful, angry or ashamed. The bankruptcy brought up all of these in a pretty intense way. As long as I just accept the energy in my body I appear to be alright. That was a relief. I can even control my temperature. :)
Even my landlord told me that he will let it slide and won't sue me for the missed months of rent. For the first time that I can ever remember there appears to be abundance in my life and it only happened after I lost everything.
Thank you for all of your help during this time. It was hard. Really hard. In a way, I feel that Jen died and a new person was born.
Jen |
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