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Feeling Work |
| Name: |
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Bill |
| Date Posted: |
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Nov 27, 07 - 9:48 AM |
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periodically@mail2bill.com |
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Hello,
I'm new to this site and I appreciate the perspectives offered here, as they seem to correspond with a lot of what I've read and experienced personally.
I've been going through a very rough period in the last year or two. I lost my job (though I did find another and currently work out of my home). I lost my longtime girlfriend. I've been struggling with various addictions (smoking, drinking, pot), as well as a deep sense of depression and hopelessness. For a while, I was trying to seek answers through spirituality (Buddhism) and self help books, though lately I find myself slipping back into unhealthy addictions.
I really want to turn this crisis into an opportunity for personal growth, but something keeps holding me back. I've always had a very negative, self-defeating attitude, like I set myself up for failure. I also have a very hard time accessing my emotions directly, tending instead to intellectualize everything. I think there's a lot of fear and sadness inside but I can't seem to bring it to the surface. I'm not an angry person at all, though I guess they say depression is anger turned inwards, so perhaps I'm just taking it all out on myself.
Unfortunately, I cannot afford a therapist right now, so I need to do this feeling work on my own. Any suggestions for breaking through the barriers?
Thanks,
Bill |
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