I have been going out with my boyfriend Jackson for almost two years now on and off. We have been steady for 11 months now and last night he told me he was attracted to another girl. He has always treated me badly and I ALWAYS give in. I can't help but call him back I thought i loved him. I was ready to spend the rest of my life with him. I know it is for the best but it is really hard to forget about him. I cried so much, and I can barely get out of the bed. I hate this feeling. I love him and I always will but I don't deserve to get treated like this. I have been cheated on in the past not by him but I have had my heart crushed so many times I don't think I can ever truly fall in love again. I gave everything to him and he took it all for granted. I gave him my heart, my virginity, my life. I bought him everything he wanted and changed everything about myself to make him happy and still I cried myself to sleep almost evry night. I am in a state of utter confusion and I know I will get back together with him which is the sad part. I hope I can find the strength to get over him b/c I m ready to be tryuly loved. I am ready to open up. I just dont want to do anything stupid. Im so scared and I am so sad. God Please help me, I've wasted so much time.