OMG! I want to give you a hug. I'm in the midst of a break up right now and they are not easy. This one hurts but not like the one you are going through. But, I write because about 6 years ago I went through one similar to the pain you are feeling. I thought I would die.. I couldn't eat, sleep, think, ..be... My heart was broken and my body was phsyically responding. I looked like a wreck, felt like I was shutting down. I sympathize and empathize with you completely. And your writing really brought back the pain and I really feel for you. I had to go see a therapist (I am now a therapist because that lady helped me SO much!!) I was 20 when it happened, I lost like 15 pounds, and I wanted to eat but had no appetite. You will surivive darling, but you MUST put yourself first and drag yourself to talk to someone. Trust me, it helps. It'll hurt but it will help! Also, please get the book "Its called a break up because it's broken". It's helping me through my current breakup. I still have a soft spot for the guy that broke my heart 6 years ago. But I survived, and him and I are GREAT friends. He actually came grovelling back to me after I got over the break up and it felt good to tell him that I had moved on. Maybe your guy needs time, but you DON'T HAVE TO SIT AND WAIT!! You rock, I can tell from the way you wrote, that you are a nice, caring person. You deserve that loved returned. The first step is to cut all ties w/him. It will be hard, but you have to. If it's meant to be, he will see that you are serious and come running back-- because he will be scared to lose you. If it wasn't meant to be then you will find some one better. Please hang in there. I am a marriage and family therapist, I know this stuff.