Hi. I read your post and it sounds like a mirror image of my relationship; we broke up last Friday after having been together for 18 months. I am 25, he is 28. I have never loved someone as much as I have loved him and yet he said that for him it just wasn't working; we have had small fights consistently for the past few months - always trivial in origin, but each time it managed to become about major, underlying issues. Each time, I would end up resolving it, by admitting that I was the one who had been wrong, apologizing.. and so we would try again...

I am still heartbroken and hurt. I think of him constantly. We had planned our lives together; had booked a holiday for next month together... and suddenly that has been stripped away from me - and in a phonecall. I DO know how you're feeling...

All I can say.. is DO NOT contact him. Not once. It will hurt you. I haven't contacted my EX. It's killing me, but it's the best thing for ME - I was always doing the best thing for him - this time I'm protecting myself.

I too believe that you are a beautiful, strong and loving girlfriend. If he has broken up with you, then it is HIS responsibility to make that up to YOU - to call you, to tell you he was WRONG... he can't live without you. If that doesn't happen, then he will lose all respect for you. You did not end it with him. He has hurt you... just as my boyfriend has hurt me. If he isn't willing to fight for the chance to be with you.. then he doesn't deserve your love.

It's only been five days since we broke up. But, a part of me now believes I was holding onto something that I thought I had - maybe at the beginning - but over time... all those fights had changed that. He had stopped caring about me same way that he used to. Do NOT try to blame yourself for that - I know I do all the time. That's not going to help. But he broke up with you for a reason - he doesn't want the life you do with him. As much as that hurts... you need to find yourself again. Find that person that you were before you started going out together. Have some time away - treat yourself to some "me time"... and once you start loving yourself for the good person you are.. the pain will go... and you will come out so much better off...

I hope this helps you..
Take care of yourself...

xoxoxo