Wow...How wrong was I...I've always been a good girl. I've never really drank or partied and I was super conservative. After breaking up with my ex after 3 years because he cheated alot on me and doesn't care, I went out partying it up and had a three some with a girl/guy and the next day with the same guy and his friend. Now. I feel like a *****. My actions were definitely that. I've never done that before and I've had sex with only 2 guys before this weekend. sighs...I still haven't showered and my breath, I can only imagine reeks!! I've been home ALL day, I have no job yet...Running definitely crossed my mind, instead I was dumb enough to buy my 1st pack of cigerettes...I would be eating more but I still feel sick to my stomach from last night. One of the guys I had sex with this weekend said I was flipping out...apparently I was emotional and he was just looking for a good time. I'm a great girl and alot of people love me. How could I have stooped to such a LOW level?? I feel like everyone is giving me that emotionless blank look...I'm in the Army and I almost just want to say, hey DEPLOY ME so I can let them kill me! not really, but...that's how worthless I feel right now... I need some positive support here...if your willing...

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